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[geniusdreams]

So... here are some "goals"... I have for this whole 5th level stuff...

1) To instinctively, always know what to do with the energies around me. At least classify them correctly, so start off in the right general direction. Not this whole "uncertain" shaky start to things, and have to spend weeks figuring out how I SHOULD feel, when I only really had a few seconds of opportunity.

What to do with sadism is easy enough. Hate it. And I'm good at dealing with sadism, because I've spent so long hating and cursing these monsters on planet Earth (most humans).

But how to deal with other kinds of energies? People who are selfish or don't value anything properly, and all the various energies that spawn out of that? That's a whole another thing. How to make it so they don't lower my energy at least, and more preferably RAISE it.


2) To get into this whole "group decision" thing. Where it isn't one person deciding something, it's like I'm part of a bigger being, we are deciding what to do, as one, feeling each other's emotions and instincts. This DOES happen already in well-oiled teams, maybe in certain sports or even in SAS (special army units). I just want this... as much as possible, and not in sports or army stuff, cos that's not really my thing.


3) This one is more about "how much", or "how strong", than, "what direction"... Basically the hardest thing to "Get inside people's heads" on, is on gender stuff. Going against humanity's retarded gender system. To just... make things the way they are meant to be. If I can get THAT ONE going on... so people FEEL what I feel, understand why I needed to hate evil women so much, then I've got it made. Without that, it's NOT COMPLETE! It has to "flow" all the way back to the beginning. And the beginning is reproduction.

[geniusdreams]

On the whole "what to do with their energies" thing... It has to be ALL the time, even when I'm asleep or not paying attention. As a correct habit!

Let's say I'm walking down the road, and I trip on an uneven pavement. I ALWAYS catch myself. I always stop myself from falling over. Because I have good balance. (I might fall over if running but not while walking). So that's an instinctive habit, and the correct habit.

That's the kind of thing I want, except for energy, not just physical things.

And mainly the thing is... what to do with people who happily "let me die in front of them". I'm not talking about physical death. I'm talking about "the real me". The person I'm supposed to be. All the energy and way of being. People who COULD help, if they'd just fucking listen. And still don't help, despite even knowing they have what they needed to help me! They don't help because they don't fucking care or value anything properly.

People who could let me grow old in front of them, despite having praised me for looking and being properly young. Despite that I only managed to stay young before by using my energy. So they see something they say is great. And have what they need to help this thing stay great. And... don't fucking care to use it. Because they don't listen to me. How I'm feeling or anything. No time for me. And then I end up becoming older looking and feeling, with real physical manifestations. And they don't fucking care.

God I hate those kind of people. The people who just let me die in front of them. That's the main one I have to learn how to deal with that properly.

Oh wait... that's basically EVERYONE. Well, not me. But everyone I know in real life except me.

[geniusdreams]

4th goal: To have PROPER NAMES for all my theories and stuff

I need a list of things for which I don't have proper names for.

* "Third level of evolution". So far "Awakenedness" is the best name, but it's bloody long. And... it is used often in meaningless ways by "mystics"... Which is a problem as I have a pretty specific definition ("movement of your own movement"). maybe "sapience" is good? "Sentience"... sounds a bit too "formal".... "Self redefinition" is a good one, in that it doesn't sound wierd, but it's not specific enough. What about people who redefine themselves in harmful ways? That's not evolution anymore! On the other hand, "invention" is still invention even if it is harmful. Maybe "redefinition" is a good thing?

* "5th level of evolution". Also needs a good name. "Leadership" already has many meanings, only some of which are good for my purposes.

* "Levels of reality theory". heh. Not descriptive, or specific, at all.

* The overall name for ALL of my theories?

My goal is to have proper names for ALL of these!

[geniusdreams]

Funny cartoon, that unlike most these days, isn't... copied and therefor drained of all inspiration:

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/469976

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/529578

http://www.playedonline.com/game/597681/blosics-2.html also a cool game

[Dragondragon]

Another two funny little cartoons:

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/339003

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/195918